I won't let you.

People change, life changes without us even realizing sometimes.

Ever felt like the things you related to the most just don't apply anymore, not because you've grown up or moved on...just pure change.
It just smacks you in the face and everything has shifted.

It feels difficult to say I'm a adult- I realize I am in every sense of the word but I sometimes want to just hide under my parent's wing and feel the shelter.

I've spent so much of my life not only caring what others think but also doing things based on their responses, attitudes and wishes. well fuck it.

It's clear I am the only one that really understands what's going on in my own head, my own heart and feelings.... outside ideas can sway thoughts in a certain direction but I am the only one that can and will do. I know what I want in this life and I should stop looking for outward justification for what I already know is in my grasp.

It's time to say goodbye to turning tables-adele.


vb

Fears of all around.

Ok, I realize I have not been the best blogger lately. Sorry Team- but alas I am back. I promise..

Reflection lately has brought me to this place of questions without answers. Paraphrasing the words from Michael Healey's show last nite Are you Okay. Which by the way- if you have time to see by the end of this weekend, see it.
In a way, he discussed the repetition that is our lives even when we don't realize it. We do thinks, movement, actions, tasks without knowing why or when, we just do. Life is so complicated but can be in some senses brought down to simple tasks of behaviour.

Whoa. I got deep there for a minute. ;)

Lets absorb that for a bit-shall we?

Great. How did that feel? Do you question choices you've made in the past, present or future. Maybe you will never know. That's what life is though right- a series of choices down a path. Much like one of those... make your own adventure books, do you choose option 1 or 2 and where does that lead you to.

I realize choices have led me here, but for what.

Did the 6 year old vb realize what choices she made then and in the future would led her?

Does current me know? Most likely not.  Maybe that's the best thing about life? The not knowing. Part of me can't wait to be in my 50's looking back at this time and laughing- at all of it.

Fears and tears are no more.

vb.

Love ain't always what it seems.

Lots to talk about viewers/readers/friends... but a las today is not the day I have time for all.

Reflection is a task that takes much time... and there is so much more to do.







Make everyday your greatest. Love for all.

Live life for one

Hello World,

Sorry for my hiatus of a few days. Life has gotten in the way and to be honest I wasn't sure what to write about lately. So, a new month begins.. and a new adventure starts.

A had a amazing weekend with my momma. We hit up the Home Show and I made her dinner at home. My brother even dropped by my apartment for a few hours so it was almost like a full family gathering. It was nice to visit with her.. talk through some stuff and just have fun. She left early Sunday morning to pick up my dad from a work weekend and I was on a weird high all day. I baked muffins, watch some tv, did some extra grocery shopping and looked at my life with a slight new outlook.

I haven't felt that happy for no reason at all in quite a while, and damn it felt good. I'm feeling a new chapter coming on.. with some great results.

but more on that one later.

For now... I leave you with adele- someone like you. It's a sad song but beautiful in so many ways.



 Love for all.

vb.