Worry Why

Some people would say I worry too much.... (thanks mom).

I'm learning more and more that life is full of chances/opportunities and misses. It's easy to forget why you are doing something when you are in the thick of it, and sometimes outside help is all you need.

So after a great night with a old friend and a beautiful walk to work.. I've decided one thing.

I won't worry my life away .



On to the next adventure.
vb.

Past, Present, Future.

What a change one day to the next.

Ever feel like you are just stuck and not really sure why? Feelin' low but have no real reason for it. Well I encourage you in those moments to push through- on wards and don't let the little things let you slide.

Over the past few weeks I have found myself- skipping the gym, staying late at work, stressing over small issues and feeling in general like the weight of the world is holding onto my shoulders alone. After having a slight mental breakdown with my mom on the phone and scaring her to death that I was falling deep into depression.... sorry mom!

I took some time and really got to the root of issues:
1. I wasn't voicing my un-happiness clearly.
2. Some challenges cannot be fixed in a day, week or even a month and thats ok.
3. Cutting out gym-time makes everything worse.
4. Forced fun is not so fun.

So I finally got back to my favourite Jam class last nite and within a few seconds of stepping in the room, feeling the beats and dancing to the music.. I could feel old vb coming back/

Let's hope she is here to stay. ;)

vb.

Blue

Experience is the name everyone gives to their mistakes.
- Oscar Wilde.

If life has taught me anything lately - its don't be surprised when it all goes to shit.
Now there are good days weeks even months and bad ones. I think what's worse is just coasting, not really feeling anything. Taking it day by day with no true reaction.

The ultimate cruise control.

What's worse is realizing you've been in that moment for longer than you knew.
When do demon's take a holiday?


Life brings you lemons, so throw them in the wounds.


When to break free and when to slip into the deep cove of nothing? Slipping farther and farther in.

vb.

Weeks all blend together.

You say you love me
Well they feel like words to me
Well this just ain't working
Stop thinking you can run over me

My song of the week: Rihanna- Fading



That's I got this week.
Life, love lost.

xo
vb.

Oh love.

Oh hello there day of love for all.
Start to a new week.

Challenges are different every week and this week is no different.
Dare to be different.

My Mantra this week: If someone wants to talk to you they will find a way, don't put in effort that won't be received.

Love to all I love.

Born this way.

Born this way came out today.... have you taken a listen?

Perez has posted the whole song and since I can't find a legit version on you tube, have a listen for yourself here.
My initial thoughts when I woke up to this song... the beat/tune sounds familiar, but I just can't place it. I've listened a few times now and I think I will get hooked- just takes time. I love this photo though.

Thank gosh the weekend is here!!! Work is just getting busier and busier the later in the semester we get.. so weekends are my only time to breathe.. or so it feels like.

Plus this weekend makes the beginning of the 25th yr on this world for my very best friend Katie!!!! We will be sure to welcome her 25th year right- I cannot wait to get started.

So with that I leave you with two things... lots of photos that I either love for no reason or inspire me... with fashion, love, life and all.

I also am leaving you with a special Friday tune- Maroon 5 " Never gonna leave this bed" Love love love it.

Love is everywhere.

I miss london town.

Oh Misfits. How i <3 u.

Love floral right now.

I have that ring :D

A small amount of animal print is always right.

All images via: we heart it.

So happy weekend. I hope you find a reason to smile in this cold weather.

vb.

Lipstick Stains.

Madison Magazine did a gorgeous spread with rachel bilson and I couldn't help but upload the pics.

 and here is some behind the scenes photos I loved. Ugh Rachel Bilson- you make me want to re watch the O.C.

Really love her hair in this shoot!

The real question though is- is it time for spring yet?
:(

Nowhere to run.

So many listens lately so little time.

I have a mass amount of music that has been hitting my head this week- some old some new. So check it out. :D

1. Tonight I'm lovin' you- Enrique Iglesias
 A great get up and dance hit- who doesn't love Enrqiue's comeback. This one gets me up and dancing.



2. Everybody’s Free (2009 Rework) – Global Deejays feat. Rozalla
 One of my fav. jam hits....this popped on my ipod Sunday morning when I was cleaning my room. I had to stop sorting laundry to get out some much needed jam moves. Everybody's Freeeeeee! I dare you to try not jamming to this!



3.Basement Apt-Sarah Harmer

A song I haven't heard in years- still remember all the words and still love it.



4. Natasha Bedingfield- Touch (The Dirty Tees Remix)
A random pick on my ipod- great beat/great lyrics. dance dance dance the night away.



So there are my hits for this week.

Hope your day is sunny like the shine outside but maybe not as cold as it appears to be in Ont. :(

xo.
vb.

Everytime I try to leave

Today is the first day of the rest of your life. hahaha.
I've spent much time lately reflecting on my feelings, choices made and paths ridden. I think it's finally time to say I have reflected enough and to have some care-free fun.

I realized I have put too much pressure on the what-if's of the future. I am only 24 and how will I find the person that is meant for me if I don't have some fun while pretending *not to look*. I don't want to look back at my life in my 60's, 70's and 80's and think " I wish I had stopped worrying and just had more fun". I realize I should enjoy this time where I have almost on obligations or responsibilities that limit the things I can do. So I am giving myself a Get Out of Jail Free card.

So as I sit at my desk with a cup of coffee, listening to some great Canadian music and a HUGE to do list- I have a smile on my face. I know I can conquer my dreams and I know everything will be alright in the end. The journey is what makes life so great and I guess I just needed a little reminder of that.

Thanks for the reminder universe and all of my friends.

Old memories.

I can't wait for the next chapter.

xo.
vb.

I know you want me.

I welcome this Monday with open arms... well kind of. At least after I've had a shower, coffee and read a lil cosmo.

So maybe Monday morning's aren't my specialty but I'm trying here.
I took the time this Sunday to do nothing and it felt great. The older I get the more I understand the importance of me time.

Weekends go to fast. I just hope to keep that happy feeling going this week.

love me first.

xo.
vb.

Therapy

This week has been a wild one.

I've been feeling a little low. Do you experience weeks of high and others of lows?
How do you pull yourself out of it?

I feel lucky to be surrounded by great people who tried very hard to make me feel better- and in some ways it worked. I just needed some time and someone to listen. I am feeling better- not completely fixed but closer to that objective.

I continue to dream of summer.. hell even spring. Anything that is not this awful ass weather.

All photos via: weheartit

I think lately I've been putting too much pressure on myself. In the sense, trying to be perfect at work, at home, as a friend, as a daughter, as a single lady in the city and have not found anytime to just breathe and be me.

So that my friends is my challenge for the weekend. Getting some much needed real me time.

xo.
vb.

Only Girl.

Ok. So I'm a day late with my music butt yesterday just kinda got away from me to be honest.

So I promise to still include some songs I'm diggin right now... but first have some fashion blog recommdations and such. :D

Lately- most likely due to the weather and general busyness, I have been feeling the lack of trying to put outfits together and having fun with that process. Instead, I have been putting on- what I see first or what is just easy.... no fun.

So finally I feel back and ready in the game of trying some new things and adding pieces together. One of my fav. fashion bloggers is What I Wore. A lovely woman who used to live in NYC but this past year moved to a small university town- she takes pictures almost every day of her outfits as well as some other fun things. One outfit I recently saw on her blog and loved the combo of was a mix of a striped nautaia theme'd shirt with a blazer on top. I also saw this look in the fall on the street car and have been thinking about it ever since. So today i tried- I won't have time to take a photo today.... maybe at some point soon but here is the orginial post.

Another outfit from Jessica that I love and wish I had a similar skirt is in this post. I love the mix of causal and fun as well as a skirt. I miss dresses :(

Ok.... on the the music!

Two entires stuck out to me this week- both I heard on Saturday and fell in love with.

1. Nicki Minaj- Right Through Me.

This video has a longgggg intro- so be prepared, but the actual song is bangin'.




2. Miike Snow

A staff member/friend recommended this one to me and I can't stop playing all of this guys music. Great beats- interesting lyrics and great music to have in the background to many activities day or night.





So there you go! My Thursday is just getting busy so that's all I have time for today.

Peace and love.

vb

Right through me.

How do you do that?

I've been sitting on this post for most of the day. Not sure what to say today to be honest.

I don't feel particularly inspired, upset or happy. Just in a coastin' area. I mean stuff is going on and I have varied emotions going on but I just don't have any comments on those issues right now. Boring eh?

Considering this is a tool to not only open up about my issues, wants, needs, questions, answers, etc. I find it funny I have either nothing to say right now or nothing I wish to say.

I have been feeling fairly overwhelmed at work lately- mostly to do with the fact there are just so many projects to either start or that are half started that need to be finished. Where do I start?

I am feeling unsupported by one close friend- and what is most annoying is they prolly have no clue. They either just don't answer my messages or answer late- and do not really engage. Its frustrating me in the sense of feeling dis-connect. Something I hate feeling. Ugh. Just in a lost area at this point i guess.

I apologize for this post not being lifting in any way.. just the space I guess.

Let's hope for some sunshine.