Keep it all in check.

I've grown to have a love/hate relationship with Tuesdays. While I'm thankful they are not Mondays and don't represent the beginning of another work week. They also seem to be the morning that I just don't want to get out of bed.

Added to that is the fact my room is currently a mess of clothes and items all over the floor and surfaces. I always struggle to really unpack after a vacation from my house- I am definitely not one of those people that un-packs right away, but I should become one. I hate living in a space of chaos, and that is exactly what my room looks right now, I can't find anything. So there is one project for the week.... reorganize.

One of the main issues of not having things in their places is finding out too late when you run out of stuff, my list of things to replace seems to be growing by the moment. So I took it upon myself to start that process last night and grab some new makeup- I've found lately some of my makeup has been lacking in the whole working thing, ie not covering my face correctly and just not helping me feel better about myself. Enter Sephora.

Oh Sephora how I heart thee.
A long time ago.. maybe even before this past summer I dropped by Sephora inquiring about a new foundation. I've used MAC for the past few years but have just found the coverage isn't working for me any longer. I was recommended to try Make Up for Ever and decided to wait as in the summer months I barely need any cover up. So I decided yesterday to check out the product again, I went a tad crazy and bought a few things but hopefully they will help. Stay tuned for reviews.

The other thing I've promised I would finally purchase was REAL winter boots. Even though I come from a small town where winter boots were necessary to push through the huge snow drifts, I've attempted to survive in the city without proper ones. This has seen a few casualties in the name of boots I loved but were just not winter prepped. So this year it was time to bite the bullet, no more salt stains and trips on ice- I am bringing in the big guns... and by that I mean UGG Hiking boots.

These boots have a crazy bottom tred, sheepskin inlays and hopefully will not disappoint me.

My words of wisdom today are about taking care of yourself. Do the things that will make you feel better- moisturize, do your nails, buy new items that make you feel good about yourself. Mainly because if you feel good about yourself it will come through and others will notice. Plus you got to live with yourself for live, so you may as well look hot. :)

Keep in check the things that matter most.

vb.

Little left in you now.

This weekend enabled me to revisit the ideas of love yet again.

I had a therapy session with a friend who was betrayed by a sister, and dealing with their both new-found single-hood. It got me thinking to myself, am I doing something wrong?

Did I miss the chapter where we were told to fall over guys and try every tactic imaginable to get asked for your number.

Via: Lelove

I've always been a sucker for romantic comedies, the dream that one day I will be swept off my feet and ride into the sunset, but deep down I know reality looks much more like a drunk night at the bar and a casual dance that may lead into a date after date, where is the glitz and glam in that?

I currently live my single life.... just doing that- LIVING!

Of course, I want a guy at the bar or when I'm out for the night to want to come up to me, but I don't believe in putting everything on that. I firmly believe in being able to stand alone and not feel like you don't match up. Confidence in your life will take you much farther than the frat boy you meet on Saturday night. You need to learn to be just with you before someone else can truly come into your life. Go on dates by yourself, cook, take up a hobby, redecorate your living space, do the things you love, meet up with friends and family but make sure you are able to truly be alone.

We all have our "moments" I feel as though I am continuously living one now, just pushing it further and further into my being as the time to deal with it, is not necessarily now.

My walks with Bear this weekend got me to reflect a lot on this and 2 song lyrics came to mind. Some song I've been listening to constantly lately, Katy Perry's; Not like the movies. This song discuses waiting for the perfect one and when its there you will know. I am constantly wondering if the perfect one even exists but this song pulls together the idea for me that maybe the one is not necessarily just there but they can become the one, like one day it just fits. Here are some lines that struck with me:

If it doesn't stop time,
If you cant see the sign,
Wait for it.
One hundred percent,
With every penny spent.
He'll be the one that,
Finishes your sentences.

If it's not like the movies,
Thats how it should be.
When he's the one,
He'll come undone,
And my world will stop spinning,
And thats just the beginning.

The second song is a oldie but a goodie. I can remember when I first had my liscene and was able to take the car out alone, blasting this song. It got me through crushed heart break after another, but I don't recall really truely listening to the lyrics until it came up on shuffle this past weekend; Save Yourself- Sense Field. The lyrics touch on the idea of waiting for the right one, and how we so easily give up ourselves to anyone who will take.

Is it really true
Could you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you
So many times we just give it away, to someone who
Someone who you met in bar
The back of a car
And for a moment you felt important but not in your heart
My self esteem, it's been low, go ahead and count it's been lower than low
I know the feeling of it stealing life out from under me
I want to learn, how you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you
So many times we just give it away to someone who, couldn't even remember your name

So, my question this week is what is your definition of being single, do you let it define you?

Much love to all my single and attached ladies out there.
vb.

Love and lost.

I've been thinking a lot lately due to conversations with friends, songs and general focus towards love and relationships.

What is the reason behind our need to have relationships, not friendships but relationships, what values do they provide?

In some lights, I see them as a way to always disappoint. Someone always loses,  well sometimes I believe that. Is that the same for true love- destiny? What chance in you life do you have of meeting that person, not necessary to say you won't find compatible partners, but the one... the one that changes it all. How do you know they will come, let alone exist. And if they do happen to come into your life, how do you know its them?

Is it better to keep guarded and wait for that one that will make you want to risk it all, or to have love and lost over and over again until finally the right one comes.. or not?

Is it worth it? When the possibility of going through life alone is well.. possible.

One of my family members comes to mind for me when discussing this. currently on her third marriage. A woman who falls hard fast, whose heart is open wide and just wants someone to love. A early marriage that ended soon, which sadly in these times seems almost normal, especially when marrying young. A second marriage that lasted up to 20 years, ending in turmoil, deceit, loneliness and ruined my views on true love. Now on her third marriage, again looking happy as ever.

This story has a bigger connection to me, as the man in her second marriage was a huge male figure in my life. Someone I always looked up to, trusted and so when he left, he didn't just leave her, he left all of us. I often wonder if I saw him on the street someday, what would I say to him? Would I run and hide in the other direction hoping he hadn't seen me, or would I stand in front of him and tell him.. well that I miss him, that I wish things hadn't ended as they did and goodbye.

I can't help but think is something lost when you commit to that and lose it, do you lose something, change. Is the person you were at the beginning of this process the person at the end?

How many times can you fall in love?

Do we all have a quota we are about to fill?

 When do you know?

* I started this post late last night and decided to sleep on what I wrote.... driving into work today, I continued to think about the thoughts whirling in my head and one moment in history came through.

My first heart break.

I was in grade 4 or 5, and really liked this boy. It wasn't my first crush, or the first boy I kissed, but I think it was the first time I dreamed that we would date. Of course, this was a very tame courting, talking at recess and such and grade 5 flirting, which really now seems like nothing. Then the moment came that changed it all, I had invited him over for dinner and could not have been more excited, I remember sitting on my neighbor's porch reading Archie comics, waiting for him to bike up the street. I must have waited for a hour, but he never showed up. I was heartbroken- I couldn't understand why he wouldn't have come after saying yes. Attempting to hold back the tears, I called his house the next day, he claimed his best friend had come over and he couldn't say he was having dinner at my house- so he just didn't. I remember feeling so betrayed and upset.

Now I know that this was years and years ago... but somehow when thinking back to it, I wonder if it has a bigger effect of my life and how I look at relationships than I thought.

Could such a small moment ruin it all?

Silence of a song bird.

Who doesn't love hump day?

More importantly- who doesn't love some mid-week jams.

This week's collection is a series of old and new jams. All things that in the past week I've been loving.

Stage Fright- Blake McGrath

One of my favourite things about having a vehicle for the week is getting to hear new songs on the radio! This was one of those finds this week, I am most familiar as Blake for his So you think you can dance appearances and have to admit I was not impressed with his first single, but this one has caught me- hook, line and sinker.





2. I need you- N Budz

This time found my way last year on my trip to visit a old friend in Scotland, he was horrified by the song and was not please when I claimed I was kinda into it. Once back in Canada, it was on repeat for a few months. I remembered this song due to having a old mix cd in my uncle's truck... what a surprise.




Last but definitely not least is: well to be honest, this day got away from me... so I can't recall what I had planned to go here.. fail!

If.... when I remember I will be sure to add that addition on.

Happy hump day.


Ps. I want this outfit combo! Loveeeeee

Via: Jen loves Ken

vb.