You don't know Silvia.

Oh what a weekend!

As I've said many times before and will say many times again- sickness sucks.

Luckly I was still able to get out a fair amount this weekend and get some to do's done. Mainly I did a proper de-junking of my closet and said goodbye to two big garbage bags worth of clothes. Some item's were things I've held on to for quite some time- early university and on and just needed the final push to say- I will never wear this again.

I've pondered this question a lot in the past few years and it again crept into my mind this weekend after seeing recent photos of  individuals I went to high school with getting married. Its not the first or the last time I will hear about someone getting married but this time hit me a tad harder and dug up more. My concerns about finding someone to share my life with- not now, but at some point. I don't want to miss out in experiencing sharing your life with someone and what that means in every sense of the world. Will it ever come?

I've been surrounded by many friends going through hard-relationshipy times right now and as much as I am always the tough upper lip one to say it will all be ok... at this point I don't know if it will be... not necessarily for them but for me. No matter how big the upper lip, we all fall down at some point.

via: Pretty People don't eat

Something to chew on this week.

vb.

Still in love.

Hellllo Friday!

Via: Inside the loop

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We dance to the beat.

Hump day Hump day la la Hump day.

I am officially on my way to getting sick boo.. but will not allow that to bring me down today.
I can't lie- my plans thus far for this weekend are dejunking/laundry and cleaning the house, with a certain about of lazying around, and I cant wait. I'm sure some spontaneous plans will come up but for now I feel nothing but glad at the plan-less weekend.

Now onto one of my favourite things about Wednesdays- the music!

Adele- Rolling in the deep

I first heard this song in my hotel room in Vegas. Since we didnt have any ipod speakers and didnt attempt the radio we used the television and the channels of MTV and VH1 as our white-noise. This meant we were amused by countless jersey shore epsiodes and the random few moments of actually music- this gem came out of one of those random few moments. Great song, great voice.



Higher- The Saturdays

I love UK pop music. Its so upbeat and happy and this song falls right into that category. I can't help but sing along and dance when I hear this tune.




Brandon Flowers- Only the Young

I always love new Brandon Flowers music and his album is great. This video is extra special to me as its filmed in the Wynn theatre in Las Vegas where Le Reve is performed. A great show that I had to chance to see on my recent trip- water, acrobats and so much fun. Ps. the song is great too ;)




Robyn- Hang with me

I am finally getting to see my grade 7/8 hero life. Better late then never right?




What are your favourite tunes right now?

vb.

The soundtrack to our lives.

It's funny how much music is intertwined into our lives. Not only how songs can take you back to good or bad memories but also how music can change your mood in a instant.

My morning commute on the streetcar is a zenning time to just sit- think and listen to music. Although I wish often I lived closer to work where I could walk within a 30 min time frame, it's a great zoning out time before the hustle and bustle of every day work.

This morning, I was sore from my jam session last nite and overall was in a sloushy mood. Fast forward to getting off the street car and one of my favourite get-up and go tracks came on and almost automatically my mood and outlook changed. Photos have this same affect on me.

Here are some I love right now:

All via: we heart it.

What songs/ photos inspire or change your mood my friends?

I have some great tracks for you tomorrow and am almost done my workout mix.

Till then,

vb.

I've got nothing.

Oh hey monday!

This weekend pasted far too quickly- and I seemed to get only a 1/4 of my to do's done.

But I guess that is what the week is for... right?

Winter seems to be the time that most of us struggle with internal issues and demons. Why is that? Is it b/c summer is just too nice to get down, and its already depressing just looking outside?
I continue to try and stay motivated and happy but it's becoming more and more difficult and much easier to hide in my bed away from it all.

No inspiration today kids.

vb.

Slowly slipping into place

Have you ever had someone say something about you, that you've either never thought of or don't agree. The statement stays stuck in your mind for days after and makes you think your actions and feelings.


You continue to question the statement- you reaction to it and what it all means. Can someone that has met you for a hour really see that much into you or was it just a stupid line to use?

I sometimes wonder if a stranger is the best person to ask certain questions to- they have no bias, they are not your friend, or someone that wants to necessarily get in your pants, a sales associate  not a family member or anyone else who may smudge the truth to not make you feel bad. Will a stranger give you the honest hard-gritting truth that sometimes you are looking for? Can they see things about you the people most close to you can't?

So many questions.... so little time for answers.

Via: Sterling Style

Also can I please find a way to re-create this outfit. love love love.

Weekends to recover. ;)

vb.

Back to reality.

I'm backkkkkkk!

What a vacation is was. I cannot wait to be able to really sit down and look through all my photos and laugh at the crazy times I had with some of my favourite girls. Ill be sure to share a few up in here as well.

One of the best things I've realized about going on vacay's where you cannot have your phone or email is it truly forces you to turn off work-mode, a function I sometimes have challenges doing. It was lovely to fully shut off my brain for a few days.

Now its back to reality which not only means work- but back to the exercise and health plan.... whomp whomp. haha!

I am still feeling good and on the health kick- just need to power through and I'm sure grocery shopping in the next little while will fully help with that one.

So with that I head back to do more work.. boohers. but here is a great mix to get you up and dancing no matter where you are.





Happy Thursday

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Oh Nah Nah.

Finally the day is here for a break.
Some fun and good old time with some of my favourite ladies.

I have travel jitters and feel like jumping up and dancing. Let's hope this trip is all we have hoped and wished it to be. I'm ready to forget about all my responsibilities and just let go.

So with that I will leave you with my 5 fave things of the moment and some pictures I've been saving all week that I just love.

5 things.
Walking to work or home and having a great forgotten about song come on. Either a song that makes me want to dance on the street or a song that brings me back to a big moment in my life. I love those walks.

Being able to laugh at myself and the things that happen to me... like falling on the street.

Cranberry juice- how I heart you.

Feeling lucky for being able to leave for a trip away with friends

and lastly... my new found inspiration and hope that all will be ok.

I think I have a thing for the Eiffel Tower

All Courtesy of weheartit

So have a great weekend/week.

This weekend I challenge you to do one thing that new that either will challenge or scares you.

xo.

vb.

Better off now.

The script album's have taken over my mind and mood.

For me this means re-digging up the same questions I always face.

I have so many questions unanswered in my life- I realize many of these won't be finished until I am old and have seen and experienced much more... but in the moment that answer just doesn't seem enough.

The song I posted yesterday by The Script- Nothing, has been on repeat on my ipod, computer and mind. The lyrics are stuck on my tongue all day and night. The idea experienced so often of having loved without return. The nothing that continues after and what that means.

I promise I am not in any sort of depressed/sad state-- just more unanswered questions. ;D


Pst- Vegas is tomorrow. I am so excited to get away-- forget about work, life and everything else stuck up in my head.

Dream big, VB.

Start small.

Have it all,
    The Universe

Have a day full of laughs- as mine has already been.

xo.
vb

Work that Body.

Its' Wednesday!!

Which means only 2 more sleeps to Vegas- WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I'm feeling great about eating breakfest right when I get up these days- but the one thing I've noticed is by 11... 11:30 I am starving... to the point of having to hold back from eating everything in sight? I guess I need to add in a mid-morning snack- haha!

BodyJam was great last nite- I spend some time on the elliptical before hand and managed to suffer through the extra hard class this week. I may have hobbled home at a extra slow speed but it still felt great. I've been so excited about the idea of going to the gym I completely forget about my staff meeting late tonight. Major Fail. Lol.

Oh well... onto my favourite part of the week- Music Wednesday.

I must admit its getting harder and hard to not put music up all the time.. :S I always hear a great song and thing man.. I need to put that up here.

So here is this week's edition.
I was planning on this week to be mostly filled with slow, hard-hitting lyrics of songs that I've had on repeat all week. But then this song came on a few minutes ago and I just couldn't not include it.

1. Nelly-Move that Body



2. The Script-Science and Faith/Nothing

A lovely bestie of mine got a early copy of their new cd... which I'll admit I've been dying to hear for 2 months. The script always hits me deep- lyrics that connect to current or past events in my life or thoughts. These are two of my loves off the disc right now.
Ps. Please come to Canada!





Hump day; hump day how fun you are.

vb.

The tides wash in.

So much to do... so little time.

I would much rather hide in my bed all day, well not from everything but there are a few major things to do sticking out in my head that seem much easier to hide in my bed and avoid. ;)

However, I continue to be inspired on the beginnings of recent changes in my life. I think I can almost visualize a work-out schedule in my head and my mind continues to whirl with meal ideas. I don't think I have ever felt this motivate or happy about the changes. Maybe I just wasn't fully ready before... or maybe I wasn't in a place in my life where these goals seems attainable.

More important... that's the past.

I'm dreaming big and I just can't wait till tomorrow to see what happens.

I also wanted to recommended a great blog I discovered the other week written by a fellow Ontario Gal. Its all about fitness, nutriton and her experiences and it has helped lately get my mind racing with some creative breakfest and lunch ideas. I highly encourage you to check out : Eat, Spin, Run, Repeat.

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Living to the fullest, one day at a time.

Everyone hates Monday's and usually I am included on this thought.

However.... not this week!

We are less than a week away from Vegas- Woooo hoooo!

My weekend was over all great- stayed in most of the weekend watching shows like " Big love" "Boardwalk Empire" and some trashy MTV. I did make it outside for a visit to IMAX to see Tron and a lovely walk in the city by myself before. I had a lunch/brunch with a great friend and finished the weekend with a good chick flick and coffee.

And now its back to Monday.. another week.
My challenge to you this week is to look at Monday as a clean slate. A fresh week with a fresh attitude.

My goals to take this challenge myself  this week are:
to head to the gym more- including tonight ;)
Try to think positive about the week
Stay on task for work goals and get through some big projects
Reward myself with a great trip to Vegas.

Hope you find something to smile about today.

vb.

late nite thoughts from a moment's whisper

Choices in life are what define us as people right?

The decisions and choices you've made up to this point have made you what you are.

I think about the moments that really changed my life and put me to the person I am today.

- first kiss
- first heartache
- moving away from home and truly becoming a adult
- the first album I really feel in love with (alanis morissette, Ironic.... btw)
- the first time i really regretted something
- the first time i lost someone

These moments and so many more.... but what if they were different, what if you could go back and change the outcome. Would you still end up basically the same?

Would your values, loves, hates, wants and needs change? Would you lead a different life.. different job, friends and experiences.

Sometimes it is so easy to 'wish back' a choice or decision no matter how good or bad the outcome will be to you and yet that very change could mean a different you.

I continue to ponder this as I look at the choices i've made and the path its lead me on.. not necessarily bad or good just the road I've chosen to take.

It's taken me 24 years to question some keys things in my life- and although I don't expect to have all the answers soon... I value the questions and opportunities it raises.

We are who we are its true.

xo.
vb.

I'm doing me.

Oh hey Thursday- nice to see you.

My emotions have been a rollar-coaster this week. It's always sad when a good friend leaves from a visit, also going from being with family and friends 24/7 to being back to just one is a big adjustment.

I've been thinking more and more on how I am going to accomplish some of my goals this year. The reality is I am not happy with my body and I am the only one that can change it- my schedule right now is showing me more and more attempting to work out after a day at work is less likely.  So I am toying around with the idea of getting up early ( already hate the sound of that...) and working out before work. Now I'm not saying I'll do this every day ( who am I kidding?) but at least 2 days a week- mostly to ensure I get the work out's in.... because currently the only for sure work-out I'm getting is Jam on Tuesday's nights. Most weekend's I'm able to fit something in but I need to do more.

So early mornings- here we come? 

If I don't put in the time- I won't see any changes... and changes are a must at this point.

My diet is the second thing to conquer some home cooked meals- my life seems to not allow me any time to grocery shop which is awful- so i eat mismashed meals and lack of things that are great often.... time to relearn to cook?

Adventures to come at this point I guess.....

I read this quote today on daily love and thought it was a great way to end the post today- speaks to some of the things I find myself trying to remember these days.

“Perhaps the greatest mistake we can make, which causes loss of self-respect, is making the opinions of others more important than our own opinion of ourselves. You’ll find no shortage of opinions directed at you. If you allow them to undermine your self-respect, you’re seeking the respect of others over your own, and you’re abdicating yourself.”
-Wayne Dyer

 Peace and love.
vb.

In the moment.

Every time you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing. -Mother Teresa

Hit the ground running.

I can already feel sickness coming on. :(

So lots of tea and Orange Juice are in my future.

What better way to feel better than some music.

So here are my top choices of this week.

Two of the entries are from our lovely UK neighbours.

1. Shine a light- McFly feat. Taio Cruz

This song was sent to me by my lovely scottish friends. A great beat/ cute lyrics and Taio Cruz how could I say no?




2. Happy tears- Cheryl Cole.

I was introduced to Cheryl on my trip to Scotland in '09. Her single ' Fight for this love' got me hooked to her music and I've been listening ever since. One of my best friends got me her latest cd for my secret santa gift and its amazing. This is one of the songs that has struck a chord with me right now.. the audio quality is a tad off but you get the idea.




Instead of adding a third video this week- I want to let you know about a hilarious site you should check out. Its called James Van Der Memes  and its a series of James Van Der Beek faces- the most famous being his cry scene from Dawson's creek. I can remember in high school pausing the tape at this scene and laughing at how awful his face looked.

This clip still makes me laugh.



This week has started with a bang- lots of work and things to do. I hope I can get some me time this weekend- grab groceries and get my life at least a bit back in order.

vb.

The time is now.

Oh hey there 2011. Whats up?

Back to work, routine and reality.

But as made so many years before hand in the year of change. For once I actually kind-of believe it.

The holiday break was great- I had so much fun with friends and family. It was nice to be out of the city and get to relax. Now however its time to get down to business. I seem to make goals almost every-year, but the change this year is not to create some huge crazy goal- like " I will never eat bad food".... let's be serious that is just setting yourself up for failure.

So I am vowing NOT to do that this year. This year the goals are small, attainable but still very important to me. I feel as though writing them down will make them more real- so here we go. :D

1. Make a conscious effort to visit my g-parents more. I don't want to wake up one day and regret the lack of time I spent with them. They do/have done a lot for me- its time to return the favor.

2. Last year I was told I was at a major risk of pre-diabetic and needed to get my health in order to prevent the chance of becoming a diabetic. I took this news by crying for 3 days and trying to tell almost no one. I bought some new books and decided to make the change, and then well didn't. So this year- I hope to educate myself and try in small steps to combat this over-arching possible "doom".

3.Travel more- I was lucky to get to go on a few small trips this past year, Scotland in Nov '09 but I'm going to count that as '10 :), Southern Florida (including, Miami and Key West) a weekend in Ottawa and adventures at home that included canoeing and some hiking. As I have already said on here I am headed to Vegas in 2 weeks but I want to do and see more, go back to Scotland- see England, go to New York, visit Montreal and all of Western Canada. These are only a few pieces of my list of places to see but Some of wish I hope I knock off in 2011.

4. This last goal may seem the easiest for some but for me is the hardest. Being truly good to myself. My worst critic in this world is myself. I seem to sabotage myself in all areas of my life while encouraging others to their max. So this year its time to just care about me.

I know this blog will be a great tool in 2011 and I cannot wait to search more of my journey on life with all of you.

Until the next time.

vb.